Lakshya - The Mission of life

I was drunk, came back to my friends place after a long drive at 5:00 AM and while everyone else decided to sleep, i decided to watch "Lakhsya".

This is one of those movies i can watch anytime, no matter in what state i am. The script is so well written, directed so well, great music and Hritik has done a fantastic job. (I did go to bed only around 7 or so)

Everytime i watch this movie or any army personnel, i repent (thats an understatement) for not joining the Indian Army.

Isnt that i wanted all my life, to join the Indian Army? i remember having long arguements with my parents when they used to talk to me abt joining the software industry.

Did i now grow up having just one ambition, one aim, one "Lakshya", the Indian Army?

And finally when i did finally get selected , i just let it go? i just let it go.

Its been almost 6 yrs now and i havent been able to get over it and i am not sure if i will ever be able to get over it.

But then if i think of the reasons, the reasons for me to take such a big decision, they seem justified too. Well at point of time they did make sense. Maybe the situtation, and some responsibities took priority over my ambition.

And here i am , trying to find a new Lakshya for myslf. May be that will help me get over few decisions (rite or wrong) i made.....

Blame Game.. The one who wins is the loser!!!

Have u played the "Blame Game" and if the answer is yes, Did you win?

The term “blame game” is often used to describe a phenomenon which happens in groups of people when something goes wrong. Essentially, all members of the group attempt to pass the blame on, absolving themselves of responsibility for the issue. The blame game can get quite complex and convoluted, and people who are not good at playing along may find themselves bearing the brunt of ill-will as a result of whatever went wrong

How would one feel to be a winner of this game? I could never be good at it though if i have to be honest, i have tried .

I often come across people blaming each other or someone else and i wonder what is going to come out of it? Will the issue be resolved just by finding who messed it up?

I have been in the corporate world for couple of years now and have seen this game being played almost everyday.

I can hear Mr Dick saying "Do you remember i had asked you to do that work 3 months back, why did u not do it?" and the reciever, the Mr Tom would have a lost look on his face.

Conclusion: Mr Dick is a good player. He got a dose from his boss for not completing work and he very smartly drops the ball in Tom'ss court who has not yet learnt the game. So whose fault is it now for work not being competed? of coarse Tom s

Lesson Learnt: The Tom should have asked Mr Dic if he had sent a mail regarding it, in that case he would be able to provide more updates.

I wonder why people fail to focus on the issue in the time of crisis, why do they look for someone they can crucify? Would it not make more sense to find out what can be the corrective measures.

Its an intresting but a sad game. The best players of this game would be the ones i would like to stay away from.

To change is life...

Lately i had been thinking about life alot and knowing myself, i was surprised. I had not taken life so seriously but for some "cant be explained in words"  reasons, i had been THINKING.

If i would have met the present-me 10 yrs ago, i am sure like hell i would not have recognised that its the future-10 yrs later me, I was a completely different person, my way of thinking, my ambitions, my likes and dislikes. I am not sure if anything of that is left in me anymore.

Its so difficult for me to relate myself to my past, i do not know what triggered the change but it was a very sudden and very drastic. One moment there is a silent, not so confident guy and the very next second he an extrovert, filled with confident, talking-to-everyone.... :P Well, the the change wasnt within a second (that would have been very weird) but ya it was very sudden.
And i have continued to change since then, though the frequency and the amount of change never matched the what i call "drastic" change.

I like some of the changes if i have to look back and compare for instance, i am not judgemental anymore (how could i have been judgemental back than is beyond my understanding), I do not take too many things very seriously , Have learnt to cope up with changes wid more ease.. and many more

But come to think of it, "To change is life". its called the evolution. you evolve to cope up with changing surroundings and if u dont, well thats the end of u.

But that makes me think again, how many of these changes are one's own decision?
Have you changed few things to keep ur parents happy?
Have u changed urself to make sure ur friends like u?
Have you changed anything to ensure ur boss likes u/ur work?

Well my answer to all of the above question would be yes, now matter how small the change it would have been.

Now sometimes i ask myself, how much i have changed for MYSELF?